Brandon & Angel
05-18-2002, 11:00 AM
Can I do anything rite?
It sure does not seem it......
I have been trying so hard to find a way to get Angel HOME!!
I was finally told yesterday in a Meeting,,,,If I came up with 24 hour care......I could take Angel home.....
I talked to Angels Dad last nite on the Internet and he asked me if that was a really good idea .......and I told him yes......
He was like what if she Coded,,,,,You are an hour from the Hospital,,,,,,
I said what happens when we move out of Province......?
Then he told me he would Support in in what ever I wanted to do,,,,,But he knew if somthing happened to Angel I would blame myself,(he is rite).....
Then I asked him if he would blame me he told me NO...For some reason I do not belive that as he is so concerned with her coming home.......
He thinks I should wait until she is off the Vent for some time,,,,How do I know if that will ever happen......It has happened during the day and she is back on it 24 hours,,,,,,
It seems no matter how hard I try nothing is good enough.....
I even told Angels Dad,I would work 6 hours a day instaead of 8......
I am ready to toss my hands and SAY I GIVE UP I CANT DO IT ANY MORE!!......
I dont do anything.....I dont go any where,,,,,,,,
My life is Angel and Work,,,,,,
Today Ron and I were suppose to go out on our Motor Bikes,,,,,Now I am even to Depressed to do that and Guilty that I will not be Spending the day with Angel,,,,,,,,,,
I even had it so that her Rn had yesterday off so I could enjoy some "me time"..... (HEr RN is working today)I think I will just spend the day in bed.......
B
Husband to Angel *24 CF, Turners, Epi, 3 Strokes, G-Tube, Traced and Vent Dept*
It sure does not seem it......
I have been trying so hard to find a way to get Angel HOME!!
I was finally told yesterday in a Meeting,,,,If I came up with 24 hour care......I could take Angel home.....
I talked to Angels Dad last nite on the Internet and he asked me if that was a really good idea .......and I told him yes......
He was like what if she Coded,,,,,You are an hour from the Hospital,,,,,,
I said what happens when we move out of Province......?
Then he told me he would Support in in what ever I wanted to do,,,,,But he knew if somthing happened to Angel I would blame myself,(he is rite).....
Then I asked him if he would blame me he told me NO...For some reason I do not belive that as he is so concerned with her coming home.......
He thinks I should wait until she is off the Vent for some time,,,,How do I know if that will ever happen......It has happened during the day and she is back on it 24 hours,,,,,,
It seems no matter how hard I try nothing is good enough.....
I even told Angels Dad,I would work 6 hours a day instaead of 8......
I am ready to toss my hands and SAY I GIVE UP I CANT DO IT ANY MORE!!......
I dont do anything.....I dont go any where,,,,,,,,
My life is Angel and Work,,,,,,
Today Ron and I were suppose to go out on our Motor Bikes,,,,,Now I am even to Depressed to do that and Guilty that I will not be Spending the day with Angel,,,,,,,,,,
I even had it so that her Rn had yesterday off so I could enjoy some "me time"..... (HEr RN is working today)I think I will just spend the day in bed.......
B
Husband to Angel *24 CF, Turners, Epi, 3 Strokes, G-Tube, Traced and Vent Dept*